Melanie, 20 A woman’s heart should be so hidden in God that a man has to seek Him just to find her.Tumblr (3.0; @melh)http://melh.tumblr.com/<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/65917cbc504fd17e5785791c8bb2a655/tumblr_mohvdlbPg61s90hrjo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>There is something inside of me that talks to me, telling me to find some way back to you. It’s bringing me closer to God. It let’s me find truth. In being vulnerable, I am strong. In a deformed way, I feel more like myself when I’m in the midst of losing myself. I don’t know why. Throwing an email your way is the only way I see clear. The idea strikes me. I’m stuck between a happy peace of mind and an indecisive stubbornness that can’t help but be angry. I believe anger and resentment is the opposite of happiness. I believe these paths do not cross. All my life I’ve turned away and never opened my arms to pain, but by saving myself I actually hurt myself. I missed out on closure. All my life I’ve only done these things one way. But I don’t want to live my life doing one thing only one way, and never knowing how anything else turns out. But I know that anytime I have ever taken a risk and followed my heart, it’s always been the for the best. I have never regret it. They’re actually my proudest moments. And I think doing this, no thinking, no lists - just being brave and letting it all fall out. I think that’s the best thing for me. That may save me. It may empower me. Or it may just bring me down. But it’s been months now. And I still, still, feel this way. You haunt me in my dreams. I see you in my sleep. I feel you all around me. And I know that one day, eventually, time will let me forget. But I’ve been around the block enough times and I know it will still haunt me in the end. And these problems I have now will be problems later on. I don’t need the baggage. What I need is to be strong. Put myself out there. Try. Believe. Expect nothing. And forgive and be forgiven.</p>http://melh.tumblr.com/post/53317500672http://melh.tumblr.com/post/53317500672Tue, 18 Jun 2013 20:17:59 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/b706632cc2038ee15cc686f0406370b4/tumblr_moldjgpi9P1roez34o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://melh.tumblr.com/post/53315950498http://melh.tumblr.com/post/53315950498Tue, 18 Jun 2013 19:54:45 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/eed7b0eafcbba228353851ce8a16f232/tumblr_molvttWWyR1qb292do1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>About that.</p>http://melh.tumblr.com/post/53301572874http://melh.tumblr.com/post/53301572874Tue, 18 Jun 2013 16:34:25 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m9u69qZ2tM1rnoddlo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://melh.tumblr.com/post/53289064985http://melh.tumblr.com/post/53289064985Tue, 18 Jun 2013 13:38:37 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/db9b99e98997cac7d83a052ac9bb8411/tumblr_mnbk4po9hT1s154zoo1_500.png"/><br/><br/><p>I don’t know what I want. I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t know why I care. All I know is something keeps pulling me back and I want to reach out but I’d just be reaching out emptyhanded.</p>http://melh.tumblr.com/post/53288885538http://melh.tumblr.com/post/53288885538Tue, 18 Jun 2013 13:33:50 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/3ddc74339cd8e1c44a38c183c4b618fd/tumblr_mol2n2rN8p1rsuqnlo1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://melh.tumblr.com/post/53288605523http://melh.tumblr.com/post/53288605523Tue, 18 Jun 2013 13:31:35 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m42jpn8qmn1qgg5o8o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>Heal me, seal my fate, and kneel next to me.</p>http://melh.tumblr.com/post/53144615584http://melh.tumblr.com/post/53144615584Sun, 16 Jun 2013 18:11:06 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/e08c39b0ae970550d4a1f055c93fa581/tumblr_mohldoQESH1sojqu9o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>Lose ‘em how you got ‘em.</p>http://melh.tumblr.com/post/53134047230http://melh.tumblr.com/post/53134047230Sun, 16 Jun 2013 15:48:52 -0400<p>I&#8217;m home!!!</p>http://melh.tumblr.com/post/52992578475http://melh.tumblr.com/post/52992578475Fri, 14 Jun 2013 22:28:41 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/ad29acf9dcc1f5d473608eb9765cdcc9/tumblr_mo8woiTZSZ1sod031o1_250.png"/><br/><br/><p>My favourite emoji! So funny and so much attitude</p>http://melh.tumblr.com/post/52992583325http://melh.tumblr.com/post/52992583325Thu, 13 Jun 2013 16:20:33 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/989ecae38e1d2ae63210326908f2e2f8/tumblr_mgjco8IXM21s1b1j9o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>Last eurotrip of mine starts in Paris. Then it’s off to the North of France, the North of Italy, and the South of France before heading back to my second home (admittedly) and then off to the motherland.</p> <p>I never thought I would get to meet this day. I honestly thought today would never come. That’s the thing about things you’ve never been through before…you don’t know if you can get through. But you can and you do. And it’s usually always to the best of your abilities. So whether you fly or fall, in many ways or less, you experience. You learn. You add another layer to you. Sometimes it adds thicker skin, and others it helps you to fly. But in the end, it’s doing something.</p> <p>That ‘first time’ is crucial. And it’s the one you remember the most even when it’s your oldest memory. A part of you will never ever let go of that.</p>http://melh.tumblr.com/post/51758439689http://melh.tumblr.com/post/51758439689Thu, 30 May 2013 19:14:42 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/cb210b5d5a7a7b24f711b32bd279c6ba/tumblr_mmwm1cud0A1r67kbgo1_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/19a3244f6f6b7db0e722b2f8b358ffe0/tumblr_mmwm1cud0A1r67kbgo3_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/2d96055164fa0c14b0790a86b9e64d63/tumblr_mmwm1cud0A1r67kbgo4_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/5b8e0ed65ab606ed681be0caf0d74983/tumblr_mmwm1cud0A1r67kbgo2_r4_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><p>The beat of my heart</p>http://melh.tumblr.com/post/51428395849http://melh.tumblr.com/post/51428395849Sun, 26 May 2013 19:13:47 -0400<iframe width="400" height="225" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/fvEZUbzqqyM?wmode=transparent&autohide=1&egm=0&hd=1&iv_load_policy=3&modestbranding=1&rel=0&showinfo=0&showsearch=0" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe><br/><br/><p>Boyce Avenue & Fifth Harmony - Mirrors (Cover)</p>http://melh.tumblr.com/post/51250168204http://melh.tumblr.com/post/51250168204Fri, 24 May 2013 17:20:00 -0400fifth harmonyboyce avenuemirrorsjustin timberlakecover<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/7d752c9a1025a975c58026c820c277e0/tumblr_mnblifQFWr1qb292do1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>the bomb diggity</p>http://melh.tumblr.com/post/51247442301http://melh.tumblr.com/post/51247442301Fri, 24 May 2013 16:42:15 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/5bf420ba48baf71432c9094faef0626a/tumblr_mj1i2zO4SQ1qcim7zo1_r2_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://moldavia.tumblr.com/post/44373749632" target="_blank">moldavia</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>Maison Martin Margiela F/W 2013</p> </blockquote>http://melh.tumblr.com/post/51241147129http://melh.tumblr.com/post/51241147129Fri, 24 May 2013 15:09:15 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/bb6fb6b6b548bd29516efd6aa3864377/tumblr_mlx6cyV3r21ql60ioo1_400.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://melh.tumblr.com/post/51222666007http://melh.tumblr.com/post/51222666007Fri, 24 May 2013 09:20:21 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/7318f04e9cc75cacc4ce449c14086764/tumblr_mmqwmlbsvS1qd232uo1_500.gif"/><br/><br/>http://melh.tumblr.com/post/51218315009http://melh.tumblr.com/post/51218315009Fri, 24 May 2013 07:20:26 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/9afeca8d58806d4406ecd331312d6b5d/tumblr_mjtuyh46y41rtz9evo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>Nike Air Jordan Retro 3-Black History Month</p>http://melh.tumblr.com/post/51100825310http://melh.tumblr.com/post/51100825310Wed, 22 May 2013 18:30:30 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/d27cb35847f474bf60095dc78f1d4b87/tumblr_mkc8746amj1rhrbigo2_250.gif"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/93cb5ae8f656ee393d718c7a9c0b587f/tumblr_mkc8746amj1rhrbigo1_250.gif"/><br/> <br/>http://melh.tumblr.com/post/50934858004http://melh.tumblr.com/post/50934858004Mon, 20 May 2013 17:28:14 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_maysypMeM21rzk7gpo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>Just booked a spontaneous trip to Madrid for this weekend! See ya France.</p>http://melh.tumblr.com/post/50933648043http://melh.tumblr.com/post/50933648043Mon, 20 May 2013 17:13:06 -0400